sunshadows

citius, altius, fortius!

ako si corbin!

isang nilalang mula sa isang all-girls school. at ngayo'y pumapasok na sa unibersidad ng pilipinas bilang isang CHK freshie. mahilig magbasa ng mga libro lalong-lalo na ang mga sinulat nina michael connelly, james patterson, lualhati bautista at nicholas sparks. nangungulila sa paglalaro ng softball. mahal na mahal ang pag-aaral ng arnis. mahilig tumunganga, mag-isip, magmuni-muni. at mahilig sa mga outdoor activities at mga hayop lalo na ang aking bebe.

taggity tag!

desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
:)
[max ehrmann]

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Damn it. A lot of emotions are swirling within me right now. And when I say a lot...I mean a lot. And I don't like it one bit. I've been giddy at several points. I've been worried at some. And I've been greatly irritated during the latter part. And hell. I would trade anything just to make the level of giddiness a little higher than the irritation part.

*deeply breaths* I just can't understand why it has to happen to me. It's just too overwhelming for me. *sighs* And I'm actually confused. I can't explain it. And damn hell. Nobody knows what's going on. I don't know why. But I can't tell it. I can't explain it. It's too...internal. Damn it. I know I may be acting a bit...fine...erase that 'a bit' part...I may be immature. Damn it. Is it so damn wrong to be annoyed?? Is it so damn wrong to be irritated?? Damn this!

I feel I'm so evil. Pinamumukha niyo na ako yung masama. Pinamumukha niyo na ako ang laging may kasalanan. Masama nga ba ako? Sige nga. Kasalanan ba ang maging tao? Tingin niyo na hindi ako nasasaktan? Kung alam niyo lang ang lahat na nararamdaman ko. Kung alam niyo lang ang hirap na walang mapagsabihan nito.

Damn it.

Ang sarap umiyak.

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