funny how time flies so quickly when your enjoying what you do. and funny how things may seem so trivial, so insignificant when you know you have all the time in the world to do the stuffs you do. and funny how difficult it is to realize that you don't actually own time, that you don't actually have all the time in the world and that everything has it's own end on it's own pace. and funny how things may seem so sentimental when you're in the same state as i am or should i say the same age?

presently, it would seem that i'm in a state of denial. i couldn't accept the fact that something important to me, something that has been part of me for a period of time will be ending in a few weeks. i couldn't accept the possibility that i may never see the people that has crossed my path and has made footprints in my being. so hard it is to accept that we will be parting ways especially when i am enjoying their company the most.

ang hirap nga naman. kung kelan ka nagiging masaya sa mga kasama mo, kung kelan mo nakikita ang kahalagahan nila sayo, doon lumalapit ang posibilidad na hindi na kayo magkita. nakukulangan ako sa oras. para bang ang bilis dumaan ng panahon. ang hirap din lalo na't hindi pa ako sigurado sa kinabukasan ko. hindi ako sigurado kung kaya ko ngang tahakin ang landas na gusto ko. mahal mo ang ginagawa mo pero parang alam mo na hindi mo kaya. para bang alam mo na mas marami ang magaling kesa sayo. para bang dadaan ka lang ng tingin ng mga tao dahil wala ka namang nagagawang higit sa ordinaryo. para talagang nakukulangan ako sa oras para makapag desisyon. ayoko tuloy matapos ang summer. pagkatapos nito, iba na. pagkatapos nito, hindi ko alam.