sunshadows

citius, altius, fortius!

ako si corbin!

isang nilalang mula sa isang all-girls school. at ngayo'y pumapasok na sa unibersidad ng pilipinas bilang isang CHK freshie. mahilig magbasa ng mga libro lalong-lalo na ang mga sinulat nina michael connelly, james patterson, lualhati bautista at nicholas sparks. nangungulila sa paglalaro ng softball. mahal na mahal ang pag-aaral ng arnis. mahilig tumunganga, mag-isip, magmuni-muni. at mahilig sa mga outdoor activities at mga hayop lalo na ang aking bebe.

taggity tag!

desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
:)
[max ehrmann]

Sunday, May 28, 2006

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nagkakaganito. Pati ako nalalabuan na sa sarili ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit anlabo ko na. Naalala ko tuloy yung LP sa Health namin last year. Tungkol sa depression. Napapaisip nga ako kung nadedepress na ako. Hindi ko naman matukoy kung bakit ba ako nagkakaganito. Wala akong maisip na specific na dahilan kung bakit ba ganito nararamdaman ko ngayon. Siguro masyado lang marami akong pinag-iisip. Wala rin naman akong magawa ngayon sa bahay kung tumunganga at mag-isip ng mga kung anu-anong bagay na nakaka-depress.

Siguro dahil natapos na yung Softbelles. Siguro dahil last year ko na mag-high school. Siguro dahil ala pa akong maisip na course na kukunin ko sa college. Siguro dahil natatakot ako sa college. Siguro dahil natatakot ako na hindi na ako makakapaglaro ng softball pagkatapos ng high school. Siguro dahil natatakot akong humiwalay sa mga taong komportable ako. Siguro dahil natatakot din ako na baka kalimutan na lang nila ako. Siguro dahil marami lang talaga akong iniisip.

Masyado na ba akong nagiging negative thinker? Namimiss ko natuloy yung mga bata na nakasama ko sa Softbelles. Namimiss ko yung kakulitan nila. Sa kanila ako huling nakatanggap ng hug.

Gusto ko tuloy ng hug ngayon.

2 Comments:

Anonymous said...: *tackleglomphuglick*

*squishes*; 12:02 PM
kcorbin said...: @.@ lick?!

alabsyu te pau! *huuuuuuugs*; 5:40 PM