citius, altius, fortius!

ako si corbin!

isang nilalang mula sa isang all-girls school. at ngayo'y pumapasok na sa unibersidad ng pilipinas bilang isang CHK freshie. mahilig magbasa ng mga libro lalong-lalo na ang mga sinulat nina michael connelly, james patterson, lualhati bautista at nicholas sparks. nangungulila sa paglalaro ng softball. mahal na mahal ang pag-aaral ng arnis. mahilig tumunganga, mag-isip, magmuni-muni. at mahilig sa mga outdoor activities at mga hayop lalo na ang aking bebe.

taggity tag!



desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
:)
[max ehrmann]


Saturday, June 24, 2006

the kapatiran was supposed to be one of the events i was looking forward to last summer. i was already envisioning what can happen during the kapatiran days. but it turned out into something that i would likely to forget in the near future. i did not see this kapatiran as a warm welcoming to the freshmen. i was not given the chance to see or even experience that. but instead, i saw something else. something that i could have just overlooked if i was not in my position now. and that something greatly troubles me. up to the point that i'm not myself lately. i just miss the times i would just fool around during breaktimes. and i would give anything for those carefree times. and i think you know what i'm willing to give up just for me to enjoy my last year in high school. hell, i would give that up anytime!

that something confirms what my classmates have jokingly declared last night. they didnt know how right they are. they didnt know that in the inside, i was agreeing with them. and ever since day 1, ive observed how greatly disappointing we have become.

yeah, we might have a great number of students who excel academically and we might have
a great number of comheads in our section. but still...

and i dont know HOW to change them for the better. yeah, i know, it's only the beginning...but i feel i'm failing them. :(

and you know what? i don't think i'll still be able to form a varsity team even if they will approve one. with everything on top of my shoulders, i dont know HOW i can still lead another group of people. my dream of forming one is slowly dissolving. if i would to pick between my position now and team captain, i would DEFINITELY choose team captaincy.

posted by kcorbin at 9:58 PM

2 Comments:

Blogger kcorbin said...

god, pixie... am i selfish to think and feel that way? ang babaw ko ba? alam ko naman na mas madaming tao diyan na mas seryoso ang mga problema eh.

pero hindi ko talaga alam ang gagawin ko. hindi pa ako nakaka adjust. :(

1:57 PM  
Blogger kcorbin said...

oh god...tell that to everybody. and i don't know why my emotions in a sort of rollercoaster. alam mo yun? paminsan okay lang, then biglaang babagsak. darn.

10:03 PM  

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