nasa mall ako ngayon kasi nababagot ako sa bahay. wala akong magawa. o sa madaling salita, ayaw ko munang maglinis ng kwarto. at grabe umatake sipon ko ngayon. hindi ko tuloy alam kung ano nasinghot ko at inaallergy ako bigla. siguro dahil di ko pa naaayos ang aking kwarto...hehe

kakasimula lang ng sembreak namin at hindi na ako mapakali tuwing naiiwan ako sa bahay. nakakapanibago ang ganitong set-up. hindi ako sanay eh. hindi tulad nung high school pa ako at isang linggo lang ang sembreak at kung saan tinatambakan kami ng napakaraming schoolworks. eh ngayon, nada. blangko ang aking sched kundi lumabas ng bahay para may magawa naman.

sabi ko sa sarili ko na kailangang magwork-out ako ngayong sembreak. kung hindi ako nagbibisikleta sa aming subdivision, nilalakad ko si corbin o paminsan tinatakbo, o di kaya nagpapraktis ako ng arnis.

anong problema ko sa pagbibisikleta? isa lang actually. at iyon ang mga nakawalang aso na mababangis at nanghahabol ng mga kawawang nilalang tulad ko. ilang beses na rin ako nahabol, at buti na lang hindi pa ako nakakagat. sana naman huwag mangyari iyon. wala akong pakialam sa araw eh... basta ako, wag lang mahabol ng aso. mahirap ata pagsabayin ang pagpadyak nang mabilis habang umiiwas sa aso at nakikiramdam kung may pasalubong ba na sasakyan o wala.

masaya ilakad si corbin, nakakarelax kasi. ayaw ko lang din kapag may nakawalang aso. parang mas mahirap yun. may aso ka kasing kasama. hindi mo alam kung sino ang uunahin mo, ang sarili mo o ang aso mo. hehe, ayaw ko nga mapaaway bebe ko. labs ko yun eh.

hmm... wala naman akong pinoproblema sa pagpraktis ng arnis. si corbin lang kasi, masyadong pasaway. lagi niya akong sinasamahan sa garahe kapag nagppraktis ako. paminsan ang laki niyang harang. lalapit siya at uupo sa tabi ko. kamusta naman diba. sana hindi ko siya matamaan kapag humampas ako. hindi pa niya siguro natutuklasan na masakit matamaan ng stick. hehe.

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as of now, i have been keeping my mind busy with visualization. after 2 sessions of unannounced sparring, i promised myself that i would and must improve the way i spar.

the first session happened during promotion. and that was 2 sessions ago. i have to admit, i wasn't mentally and psychological prepared for such an encounter. nagulat ako eh. and we had to spar with the chief instructor, no less. sheesh, and at that time, i wasn't properly thinking of any useful strategy, combination, or whatever that would help me spar. i wasn't thinking of the proper footwork. hell, i didn't even block his strikes at all. kaya ayun, ilang beses nahataw sa ulo.
in short, i desperately need to improve.

after the second session, i was told that my softball habits haven't been removed from my system. i was anticipating the strikes from my opponent and the position of my body clearly made my moves easily read by others. i was hitting air most of the time and if not, my strikes were successfully blocked. and i realized that i used too many overhead strikes. i wasn't in guard position all the time. i couldn't come up with effective combinations of strikes that fast. and most frustrating of all, dalawang beses lumipad yung padded stick ko. i wasn't gripping it properly. at dumagdag pa yung pagiging pasmado ni kamay.

hay, i still haven't got the proper feel of sparring. nangangapa pa ako. and i still have a LONG journey ahead of me. but there is one thing i'm sure of, i won't allow anything else to hinder me from improving.

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i realized that i have this weird tendency to really really push my body to its limits. err, suicidal tendencies? XD hahaha, nah. i just like the feel of strained muscles after a challenging workout or training.

hmm... maybe feeling all these aches in my body reassures me that i'm losing weight or at least building muscle mass??? XD wahaha! as if! i wonder when that day will finally come...

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hmm.. i'm running out of tissue paper and i'm not even losing my colds. darn.

and i've been online for about 2 hours already and i don't want to go home yet.

haha, tinatamad umuwi.